NewYork & Eighteen.

Living for the one who died for me.

There are things about you that I love and I won’t ever tell you. They are things that make me crazy about you and have no words to fully describe it. It’s like I have my own secret that no one else knows and it makes me really happy.

That sums up tonight.

What’s holding me back is the thought of time we never had.


Whoa. Tonight should just be on repeat for a long time because it ruled and I’m happy and I feel great and I’m so in love with you and with God, I just can’t even handle all of this love. It feels great! Happiness at its finest right here!

Last night’s dream.

We were in your car and we parked and you said you already booked a place and we are getting married tomorrow. I said okay and then told my parents who were totally okay with it. Then the next day, there was so much running around and we weren’t ready on time and nothing was prepared but we still got married. The wedding was super small and the weirdest family and friends were there. During the wedding your mom emailed mine and yelled for not taking a picture of just me at the ceremony. After the wedding ceremony, which was in a cafeteria, you and i went to some big house, and we slept and talked. We woke up and went to some church and we stayed for the music then left, every single day. And then the church sponsored some ‘swim in the lake’ thing, and we went and there was a hill that we climbed with Ayssya, Tyler and Stevie. Once we got to the other side, there was deep water and I dipped my feet into it and slipped and I kept falling and falling, there was no bottom of the lake and the current kept dragging me under, and I started screaming under water which didn’t work out right because water got in my mouth and I couldn’t breathe and then I woke up. 

Guess who is actually happy?

Church rules! Today sucked, but it ended freaking awesome! I can’t wait for next Wednesday, for multiple reasons. I won’t even be able to sleep because I just have the biggest smile on my face!

Take this world and give me Jesus.

So about last night..

I finally got to hold your hand and you kissed my cheek&forehead and it was absolutely perfect. Exactly where I want to be. I could not be more content with the way my life is going. I’m still struggling with some things, but it’s working out and I can definitely see God’s work. Beyond happy with love!

This will be the hardest thing I will ever do, but also the right thing to do. Things will be okay in time. God is in control and He will keep all His promises and carry out all His plans.

So unbelievably happy! Such a good morning! I love you :3

Our daily FaceTime dates are my favorite and make me happy.

So unbelievably blessed to have someone like you in my life. I take you for granted way to much, and I shouldn’t at all because you’re a huge blessing to me. God is so great. Words will never do a justice for his greatness.

I’m going to marry you someday.

:3 I might actually be on the road to being happy! Finally!

Then entire time at church when everyone was playing games and stuff, I was just watching you and I honestly couldn’t be more thankful that I have you. You’re so special and lovely to me.